Do you ever ask the difficult questions? Why am I here? Do I make a difference to anyone? Where do I fit in? Why do men have nipples?
There comes a time in everyone's life when they have to look at where they have been and where they are going. For some of us it happens early in life and we know beyond a doubt what we are to do and how we are to do it. Others of us have to wait for that midlife crisis to ask those same questions. It has been my misfortune to go through it once as a young man and again as a not so young man.
When I was in my early 20s I had it all figured out. Knowing what to do was very empowering. Having all the answers was very comforting and added to my rapidly growing ego. It is amazing how much smarter I was back then.
Now that I am in my mid-40s I realize how much I don't know. I must have forgotten it somewhere along the line. It seems that I have more knowledge but know less. It is such a strange feeling knowing that I don't know. That direction I was sure my life would take has taken a detour and I have no clue where I am or where I am going.
It is said that with age comes wisdom. I have come to the conclusion that wisdom is just another way of saying you know enough to know what you don't know. You know what I'm saying cause I'm not sure I know.
I have learned to trust God, take one day at a time, one step at a time, one problem at a time... My motto from my Al-Anon group is "A Day at a time". My second motto is "Just let it go". The second is from my professor at TX state, he was telling us to not get too worked up about little things.
ReplyDeleteI hear ya. I am not living the life I pictured when I was in my twenties. It's funny that wisdom may actually be knowing that we don't know. And being okay with that. And I don't know why men have nipples either.
ReplyDeleteLori